I feel guilty that my son is sick 💔

“I live in a nightmare, a nightmare that I hope to wake up from every morning!”💔

But unfortunately, I understand that I must face the terrible reality, a reality in which my son, my tiny angel, can leave this world.

 

My name is Andrej and I am the father of sweet Nikola.

Nikola is only five-years-old and he is suffering from acute lymphoblastic leukemia, a blood cancer that produces abnormal white blood cells in his bone marrow.😥

 

My Nikola, who never hurt anyone and only gives good and happiness to the world, is suffering from this cursed disease and he doesn’t deserve it!

 

I will never forget this date, March 12, 2024.

This is the day that the doctor told me and my wife, Natalija, that our son has cancer.

It was only a month earlier that Nikola started complaining a lot to us that he was tired.

We just thought he wasn’t sleeping well.

 

But his tiredness began to affect his desire to play with his older sister Sofija.

And then his very severe leg pain began. We took him to a family doctor who examined him, but failed to take a blood test, so there was no suspicion of cancer at all.

 

Two days later, we saw that the doctor’s medications weren’t improving his condition.

It was then that his sister Sofija woke us up in the middle of the night in a panic, telling us that Nikola was sweating a lot and making frightening noises in his sleep.

At that point, we took him straight to the hospital.🏥

 

I will never forget that night in the hospital.

My heart was racing, and I felt like I was going to faint.

Natalija and I were overcome with worry and terror at the same time.

 

The doctors ran a series of tests on him and it felt like time was standing still.

It was the longest night of my life!

When the doctor came to speak to us, I saw on his face that he had bad news.

He told us, “We discovered what Nikola has—he has leukemia.”

 

Natalija started crying and I tried to comfort her while holding back my own tears.

I knew that I had to be strong for my family. But I couldn’t help myself and started crying with her.😥

 

We immediately started chemotherapy treatments on the doctor’s recommendation.

Every treatment is a nightmare for Nikola.

He cries non-stop and misses home.

He keeps asking why he’s sick, but I don’t know how to answer him.

 

My beautiful boy, with his magnificent hair, became a sad and bald boy in a few months, with little desire to live.

 

I’ve been sitting next to him for months, holding his thin little hand, wiping his tears away and promising him that we’ll never ever give up on him! But my tears can’t be wiped away anymore.

The immense pain remains in my soul. He screams but I’m helpless. Every scream he makes shreds my heart to pieces.

My beautiful boy must live!

 

Last week the doctors informed us that the treatments weren’t helping.

They said that the disease is resistant to treatment, and that even a bone marrow transplant won’t help in his case.

I felt my world crumbling. I felt my heart shattering with a force I’ve never felt before.

I then felt like I was going to faint, so I immediately sat down and asked for a glass of water.

 

The doctors told us that there is one more option that can save Nikola. There is a clinical treatment in Boston with several successful cases in children with a similar medical background to our Nikola.

My wife flew to Boston to talk to the doctors and presented them with all of his medical records, and they saw that Nikola is suitable for the clinical treatment.

We felt a happiness like no other and felt for the first time that there can be a happy ending to this whole nightmare.

 

But suddenly we realized that the treatment in Boston is terribly expensive.

The cost of the treatment itself, together with living for an extended time in Boston, and other related costs amount to a sum far out of our realm.

We are not rich people but are very hardworking.

We checked with the insurance company but the clinical treatment is not covered by them at all.

We took all of our savings and managed to raise money from friends and family, but we still lack a very large amount to save Nikola.

 

Please, I am begging anyone reading our story. I just want our son to live.

Every donation, every “share” and every assistance, can help save our Nikola.🙏

The cancer is getting worse with each passing day, and I don’t want it to be too late.

Please don’t abandon us. This is too much for us.